teenage****angst

212'07 lala

2007-01-02T02:47:00.000-08:00

damn i have to update more often.

anyway, i'm in 212! (:

not too happy but not sad either i guess.there's CHEWLIN! and JIUN! and FEE! and MANDI! and MANTOU!and somemore people. (:

poooooooooooooof.

i spent the past five days mourning and...and worrying. i think i've forgotten what's it's like to be in school.
I kinda miss 2006, 2007 makes me feel old.

and the number is kinda funny.

no more 113'06, oh and no more mrs. bala. so sad. anyway 113 was something to remember cuz it had a good mix of people, to say the least. not a bad way to start secondary school.

my mummy bought these funny wheaty, oaty, ricey, bars. cuz she said that my heartburn or whatever, is gonna be 2 years old at the end of 2007 if it doesn't heal. (heartburn is caused by gastric, according to my mum.) (and it's in the oesophagus) and she says if this continues, it will get cancerous.

for the past 2 weeks she's been lecturing me about my diet. and that i need more fruits or my piles will become worse. and that i need to stop eating chocolate or i'll keep getting migrain. and blablabla.

ohwellywell.
school gets me away from her persistent nagging, ...for a little while.

and now she's nagging to "pack my bag".
when there is nothing to pack.

anyway, i better go before she switches of the computer switch.

byebyeee.

LONSDALE! and CHRISTMAS! <33

2006-12-19T23:21:00.000-08:00

ooh look i havent posted for a month again.
oh WELLYWELL.

hmm.

my father's shops opened!!!!!!!!!!

say YAAAAAAAAY.

did you people see the pretty pretty PRETTY ad last thurs in the life! paper pg 15? GO SEE.
yes i know it's late but oh well.
my father held this cool grand opening on fri for vivocity. celebs came aand all that jazz. then there was the anorexic models' fashion show. but the models we chose managed to pull it off well enough. i hope...

it was so damn freaky watching the celebs take away trolleys of clothes cuz my father gave them a BIG BIG BIG BUDGET so that they can take anything they want and go home.
the budget's big cuz the stuff is DAMN EX. i know cuz i did the orders for the next shipment. oh and the figures were already large for aussie dollars.

anyway you must GO.

shop 1: Velocity aka novena square aka the sports mall.
lvl 2
next to animal and (sth else i forgot ): )
shop 2: VIVOCITY aka the most crowded mall at present.
lvl 2
oppo starbucks<3>

YAAY SO YOU MUST GO GO GO. yaay fee please go.
and you will get free pretty lonsdale stickers.
oh and i know everyth is damn ex. but. buy the accessories. i reccommend the keychains that are miniature boxing gloves. comes in pink and yellow and red and white, etc.
i will show you people the pretty lonsdale stickers which i shall put on my file nxt yr. (:

okay i'm done "advertising". see angel i did my job. (:

yaay for christmas we're gonna have a christmas party!

and we're gonna barbecue and roast stuff and all that.

hmmm. my mummy has been making me wake up early again. :(
cuz i cant sleep well anymore...worrying about school. exactly 2 weeks to school.
no no no i dont want to go to school. i rather work in my father's shop and earn money(:
wah. hate school.

oh yes and go and see the lonsdale stuff on friendster and myspace.

i knew i forgot something. (:
and you can get free stickers from me! (: if i remember to bring them when school reopens. (:

eragon!
is nice!!!!
yaaay.
i went with my maid.

my maid got 2 off-days this month so she's gonna watch deathnote 2.
yuck.

oh well. (:
eragon was still nice. poooofywooofy.

i think i will go now before my mummy scolds me.
(:

lonsdale<3

ooh look i havent posted for a month

2006-11-20T03:14:00.000-08:00

whooots.
i havent posted for a month lalallaa.

I shall now insert this post that i typed out weeks ago on Word:

"You know sometimes everything is just so disappointing. I had my mind set on making next year different. Cuz it seems that everytime I go through a transition, I screw up that year, and it becomes a hated year of my life – p4 and sec1.
I wanted to change, so many things. And I just want this year to end. But before next year has even started, it’s like something is already screwed. Like RS. I mean like, I wanted to join IvP, not that I thought I had much of a chance of getting in. then my group members (I swear, I’ve got no hard feelings and don’t blame you at all), megan and jiun, get into OM. Jiun did not tell me about it and accepted the invitation. Megan told me about both herself and jiun. I encouraged her to join OM. I think it would be selfish of me not to, but thanks anyway megan for thinking about me. I put myself in your shoes and I understand how hard your decision must have been. So then, if I join IvP, I will be alone if I get in. I dont know if I’m underestimating myself but I don’t think I can handle being alone with my hopes for next year. It just might collapse entirely. So, my most possible option would be to go in for RS. I do have a back-up RS group. With only 2 people. Megan says I need 3-4. that sucks. I have a problem of not being able to work with a lot of people. And the other person in my RS group is giam, who is trying for CAP. (yaay go giam, im sure you can get it. (: ) and well, the people I can work with either are already in something or already have an RS group. I asked yimin what I should do cos I felt confused and she was the only person online that I could talk to. It’s okay even if you couldn’t help, I felt better talking to someone. (:
Besides that, I screwed up my EOIs. I couldn’t post on them cos I knew I would have sweared at a certain someone for all she’s been doing is annoy the piss out of me. I have this sinking feeling that though I improved tremendously for some subjects, I screwed up on the overall and that my GPA will go lower than low. Anyway, WHAT KIND OF SHIT IS A GPA. IT’S A LOUSY LOUSY LOUSY SYSTEM THAT SUCKS AND IS SO BLOODY SCREWED. IN FACT THE ENTIRE EDUCATION SYSTEM IS SCREWED UP THERE’S TOO MUCH SEGREGATION. I’m gonna go to some lousy class and be the lousiest of the lousy people.
I find it hard to combat my natural pessimistic attitude. I know that it is probably my fault. But im gonna take my usual shot at blaming the world. MAYBE EVERYONE SHOULD JUST PLAIN SHUT UP. HIDE YOUR JOY WHEN IT COMES TO THIS. I MEAN, IS IT ALL THAT UNCONTROLLABLE? HIDE YOUR SORROW, PEOPLE HAVE DONE WORSE THAN YOU. LIKE FAILED. AND IF YOU WANT TO NAG AT ME, CANT YOU JUST TRUST ME FOR ONCE? JUST THIS ONCE.
NO, I SUPPOSE NOT. I GUESSED AS MUCH.
I’ve done a tiny fraction of what I intended to do when we got our results …good enough."

yes well, i ended up submitting ivp with ruifee cow<3 but we didn't get the principal's signature so i wonder what's gonna happen...
and for my results, well some people posted on how they are scared that they got a 2.8 and blablabla.
WHAT THE BLOODY HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE HOW DO YOU BLOODY GET SO HIGH. YOU SUCK SUCK SUCK SUCK SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.
period.

so i have been working (with my dear darling mummy<3 so that i can ask her for help) on next year's stuff.
mainly math and chinese and chem and english. i dont know what to do for the rest.

oh and chewlin, there's i finally did go online after you "made" me and she was there but didn't talk and i didn't either. (: AHAH. I TOLD YOU SO. (: (: you can bother about it if you like, but frankly speaking, i dont give a bloody damn. whoopee.

and now about my holiday.
it's short, but still away from.....here.
(:
I'M GOING TO PHILIPPINES. yaaaaaaaay and i shall go help with the construction work in my father's new shops. (: and i shall go watch casino royale<3 with kenneth and vincent and....other people who are interested. and i shall go shopping shopping shopping for my thumbdrive cos i lost mine and it's cheaper there. but i havent started packing. i'm leaving on friday. AND I'LL BE SLEEPING IN ON THE SOFA IN MY FATHER'S CONDO. (:(:
hooooooooooray.

anywayyyyy.
about my father's new new shops<3333
aaaaaaaaah im so excited! this project is a risk, seeing that it's a new brand (new but NICE.) for singapore. lallala.
LONSDALE.
from london.
it's the brand of my pretty jacket. (:
it's really really nice. REALLY. there are nice shoes, clothes, bags, accessories, etc.
there will be TWO shops. <33
one in VIVOCITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <333333333333333333 yaaaaaay, did i mention how cool vivocity is....NICENICENICENICE.
and the other is in novena square.
both opening on december 2nd. (:
i'll be working in the novena square one...if my father keeps his word, which i hope he does. (:

here's some good signs:
-outside the vivocity shop, there were 5 advertising posters. when we checked on the shop yesterday, people were stealing the posters (we saw some people trying to steal the last one left, but they ran off when i said, "heyheyhey, what do you think you're doing.")
-and....we have seen counterfeit products. i know that seems bad, but it means the brand is good enough to be counterfeited. though the counterfeit ones are so obviously counterfeit.

LALALA. okay. (:

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,

is it normal to worry about not having something to worry about because you normally do have something to worry about?
is it normal to dread the next day for no reason?

a new blog. yet again.

2006-10-19T23:34:00.000-07:00

wheehee. lift your head off the pillow and say WHEEHEE.
and you feel high and happy, even if there's an exam, 2 in fact, on your 13th birthday. and it works. stay up till midnight and wish yourself "Happy Birthday!" before saying a few more personal words to yourself after that night long of mugging and slogging. hug someone when you first step into class and then go back to studying. and you know what? even if you screwed up both papers, you can still smile the next second. because it's YOUR DAY.

okay that was a tad bit random.
i created a new blog because, i felt new yesterday, which was my birthday, for those of you who kindly forgot. (: i dont mind, i felt good enough anyway. it's quality not quantity. (: and yes i really did say WHEEHEE when i woke up.
ANYWAY, i felt nice and new and.....new. though im not. but i want to be.
everyone has these sterotypes of teenagers, there are ALMOST, no doubt, true. some are mature and handle it, some are mature but can't handle it, same break down but handle it all the same, but yet some break down and dont handle it.
teenage makes or breaks our lives. my father did not have a good teenage, he ends up having all sorts of family problems as he is unable to understand himself and control his impulsivity. and i, being the exact copy of him, seriously, am able to understand him. however, now i am in a battle with myself, my father and i react the same way to each other when we fight...physically and of course VERBALLY.
and then, throughout this time, we need to have a friend. yet you feel you cant trust anyone around you. turn to your parents. i like talking to my mummy. she understands alot, but i keep 60% of my innerthoughts to myself. bad, true, but i dont care, i can be immature in my own ways.
then, you feel you cannot make it through...look up to someone that just has and come out of it very well, i must say ;) *hinthint* if she can, i can.

i've done alot of bad things this year, and i've noticed things that have changed so much in me. no logical explanation. of course, things have changed in everyone else, noticeably. might i just say to a certain someone, there's no point complaining about it dear, you find out what's wrong and correct it. write it down or something, cross it out once you've conquered it. it's completely normal. i know i've been telling you this the whole year, but you have got to do something and just talking about it is not going to work.
okay, i sound so.....what. anyway i <33 you so i want to make sure that you'll do fine. xD.

i will do clarissa's quiz some other day. i feel like doing it.